No go

I have been sidelined with an ear infection for a while. Today I suited up because the waves looked OK from my window. But when I got to the beach I hesitated. The bigger ones were nearly head high. So, even though they were well shaped, I decided not to go in. I went home, took off my suit, and washed the dog poop off my boots.

Part of the hesitation was my extremely poor performance the last time I was out. I actually videotaped myself and that made me want to throw myself off a bridge. I'd actually post it here if I could figure out how---last time youtube refused permission. It wasn't obscene, honest!

Part of it is my 0ngoing doubt as to whether I am really fit enough or strong enough for surfing. Perhaps I should devote my "surfing" time to working out. There are those who make fun of me for not being fit. I think they're wrong---I think I'm fit and strong. I work out, I exercise, I do other sports; I went skiing six days in a row, skiied well, and didn't get tired.

Still, how do you know if you're fit enough to surf? Alas, as in my last post, it seems one of those questions to which there are no answers.